@Bookout_jay 💚 I can tell these questions are so heavy. I'm right there with you.
Something William Matthews said in one of his interludes (in his new album called Kosmos) stuck with me: "Doubt is the doorway to faith. Always. Certainty is the idol."
Maybe lean into these feelings of uncertainty and unknowing more. Just sit there. Try to get comfortable. Try to let go of needing that certainty and that "truth". Because what is truth, really? Maybe explore that question a little more.
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