My music Prof. friend made a FB post asking for the ten musical experiences that shaped you.
I started remembering belt-notch moments: my first musical, that time I performed for 30,000 people *cough*... But honestly, the moments that "shaped" me are small, and not all good.
My list is in the comments.
6)my sense of trust and safety crumbling to dust when a music teacher made a pass at me and said I "owed" him for all the great roles and solos
7)the open mic in college when jazz instrumentalists *asked* me to sing with them
8)the day I truly understood that I was seriously ill because I missed an audition for my dream role.
9)the Sunday years after feeling broken and battered by music when I asked my pastor if could maybe help with worship sometime and he said, "Everyone bailed on me today. Here's a mic."
10)two weeks ago when my friends made the last-minute decision to do a coffee shop open mic. I wasn't perfect, it's nothing to brag about, but I was more myself than any performance before
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