It's incredible how deeply I believe that only a certain number of things are allowed to go right in my life before something MUST go wrong—before I "pay" for the goodness, somehow. I don't know how to operate outside of a scarcity worldview. I've been having intense anxiety lately, convinced a monster is lurking behind every good thing in my radius, waiting to introduce me to "reality" again. Anybody making any headway on ~actually believing~, on a somatic level, in a universe of abundance?
@equustel oh, thank you Ali. It’s a GREAT book, life-changing stuff for me, anyways. And thanks for your kind words- most everyone walks a hard road at some point. I’m just super grateful for those who came alongside me during my journey and gently showed me how to LOOK at things differently, which led me to FEEL things differently, which led to a transformed life. Is it weird to be grateful for a life-threatening disease? Probably- but it has changed so very much for me that NEEDED changing.