Our 12-Step Recovery Group has been canceled for the next 2 weeks. One leader out sick this week & the 2 leaders will have a private meeting with us the following week (so Joey - it will be Open Share for 2 weeks).
I think I am willing to forgive and let him stay in group IF he is willing to leave his shit at the door like I try to do & is willing to acknowledge what he did and make amends.
I don't hide who I am! God has blessed me as a regular sober presenter & speaker @ a local treatment center. The last time I shared my "Scripture Through Music" & Celebrate Recovery presentation @ Pride Institute, I had a young woman come up to me and tell me, "Thank you for coming. I'm glad there're spiritual people like you who come and tell us that it is ok for us to be gay and be able to believe."
I was kicked out of the Catholic seminary for being gay. I was spiritually and verbally abused by three Catholic priests (one is now a Bishop). I was sexually assaulted by a student and when I reported to the Catholic church, I was told to face my assailant directly and deal with it myself. Talk about being bullied! I am in a PTSD trauma group working how some of this is still intersecting my life, obviously.
Since we met, he has constantly "bible bashed" me. Last week, when I shared I had a "Coffee Date" he basically implied that no one would ever ask me out on a date. Now this week, he had the nerve to wear a "Taking back the Rainbow" shirt to our group. This was the straw that broke the camels back.
Happy Pride w/a side of bullying & venting!
To maintain my well-being of mind, body & spirit, I attend 3 recovery meeting per week. Earlier this week something happened at one of them that has been bugging me.
A group member has his own opinions on gays, which is his own right, but what is NOT his right is to express that in a manner that causes another person hurt, pain and reactivation of traumatic experiences from the past.
How messed up is this...
To help w/ my fibro pain, today, I have: gone to acupuncture and the just got done donating plasma so I can by the end of the week have enough money to purchase the refill of my medical cannabis, which actually IS helping.
I know worry and stress is the enemy, but every time I try to get ahead, I get kneed in the nuts. I had a GoFundMe Page set up until it was taken down since one of the many uses/goals for improving my life was with the medical cannabis. Ideas? 🤔 😮 😞
Not sure ...woke up and still feeling just feeling very down, sad and just gunky.
Had a wonderful acupuncture session to help relieve some of my fibromyalgia pain, which is up again today as well.
Just put on some music while I'm trying to write or do something to kill time as my homemaker cleans my apartment.
Send warmy fuzzy thoughts and prayers I get out of this funk and the pain gets better! 😢
It's strange how PTSD and our memories work... I'm writing my CPE narrative and was writing about a person that made an impact in my life - I started writing about a classmate who committed suicide when I was in high school.
As I was writing about him, I started crying so deeply. Remembering and feeling as if it was that day in 1989. It's tough, but remembering and celebrating what we have!
OMG - I just previewed a pilot screener for a new television "Judge" show - as if we need another on of those. Let me tell you - you will never guess who has, instead of hosting an outrageous talk show, will now be acting as legal judge on "Judge X" where chairs will not be thrown, but judgments will be hit with the gavel.😜 Honestly - it was not that good!
I love doing stuff like this. I was also on the screening and evaluation crew "God Friended Me" and a few other TV shows - It's fun!
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