I was kicked out of the Catholic seminary for being gay. I was spiritually and verbally abused by three Catholic priests (one is now a Bishop). I was sexually assaulted by a student and when I reported to the Catholic church, I was told to face my assailant directly and deal with it myself. Talk about being bullied! I am in a PTSD trauma group working how some of this is still intersecting my life, obviously.
Since we met, he has constantly "bible bashed" me. Last week, when I shared I had a "Coffee Date" he basically implied that no one would ever ask me out on a date. Now this week, he had the nerve to wear a "Taking back the Rainbow" shirt to our group. This was the straw that broke the camels back.
Happy Pride w/a side of bullying & venting!
To maintain my well-being of mind, body & spirit, I attend 3 recovery meeting per week. Earlier this week something happened at one of them that has been bugging me.
A group member has his own opinions on gays, which is his own right, but what is NOT his right is to express that in a manner that causes another person hurt, pain and reactivation of traumatic experiences from the past.
How messed up is this...
To help w/ my fibro pain, today, I have: gone to acupuncture and the just got done donating plasma so I can by the end of the week have enough money to purchase the refill of my medical cannabis, which actually IS helping.
I know worry and stress is the enemy, but every time I try to get ahead, I get kneed in the nuts. I had a GoFundMe Page set up until it was taken down since one of the many uses/goals for improving my life was with the medical cannabis. Ideas? 🤔 😮 😞
Not sure ...woke up and still feeling just feeling very down, sad and just gunky.
Had a wonderful acupuncture session to help relieve some of my fibromyalgia pain, which is up again today as well.
Just put on some music while I'm trying to write or do something to kill time as my homemaker cleans my apartment.
Send warmy fuzzy thoughts and prayers I get out of this funk and the pain gets better! 😢
It's strange how PTSD and our memories work... I'm writing my CPE narrative and was writing about a person that made an impact in my life - I started writing about a classmate who committed suicide when I was in high school.
As I was writing about him, I started crying so deeply. Remembering and feeling as if it was that day in 1989. It's tough, but remembering and celebrating what we have!
OMG - I just previewed a pilot screener for a new television "Judge" show - as if we need another on of those. Let me tell you - you will never guess who has, instead of hosting an outrageous talk show, will now be acting as legal judge on "Judge X" where chairs will not be thrown, but judgments will be hit with the gavel.😜 Honestly - it was not that good!
I love doing stuff like this. I was also on the screening and evaluation crew "God Friended Me" and a few other TV shows - It's fun!
Just Announced @
All God's Children MCC
3100 Park Ave
God Comes Out:
Encountering God in Pose, Moonlight, and To Wong Foo (6/10/19 @ 6:45pm)
Using recent popular films and television shows featuring queer bodies and struggles for life and justice for those on the margins, this conversation will invite participants to imagine and consider what a full integration of body, sexuality, queerness, and marginality in religious spaces could look like.
I have made the decision to apply for a Fall CPE! Now I begin the application and interview process.
I have been out of the academic arena since the 90's and the workforce since 2012 - and frankly, this scares the living crap out of me, but through a lot of prayer and how life circumstances have come to pass, it is the right this to do at this time. 😮 😀 😃
LGBTQ ABCDEFG Equality for Everyone
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There is an AMAZING & POWERFUL video on Facebook by Greg Gold.
It's called, "Don't Let Go." It deals with relationships from all mix and matches and raises various issues from age to suicide to transphobia to gay marriage. I felt so many emotions as I watched and hoped you feel as moved as I did and want to share as well.
Things to make you 🤣 . . . .
Why do people point to their wrist when asking for the time, but don't point to their crotch when they ask where the bathroom is?
Why is it that when someone tells you that there are over a billion stars in the universe, you believe them, but if they tell you there is wet paint somewhere, you have to touch it to make sure?
Why are they called stairs inside but steps outside?
Fact of Life:
After Monday & Tuesday Even the Calendar says W T F
Remembering RHE & Beautiful Dedications on the TWIT monger
❤️ If you are so inclined to log onto Twitter, there is a nice page at #PrayforRHE 😢
😥 I keep getting kicked in the gut this week! I've been fighting Social Security Disability since 2012. Just got the denial letter from the Appellate Court! 😡 Now I have to start from scratch.
🤯 I think it's time for a nap, otherwise, my "stinking thinking" could lead me down dangerous paths towards relapse - and that is NOT about to happen!🧐
They took another 5 vials of blood @ my hematology appt this morning-still trying to figure out my unintended 30% weight loss and a few other weird things that have been going on since December when I started smoking medical cannabis and donating plasma.
Though I've got a few friends, I still feel lonely. I know God's not done with me yet, but I'm worried. I'm playing the selfish card, I just want a hug and to be held and told everything will be ok. 😥
We had our Worship Planning Meeting tonight at All God's Children MCC. We put great efforts & details into each liturgy to make sure each person feels the unconditional & welcoming love of God. We are starting up a series on Sin & then for Pride month "The Story of Us" following 50 years of Stonewall.
All of our morning messages are available at: http://www.agcmcc.org/worship/weekly-messages/ & encouarge you to check them out for a new uplifting and affirming way of looking at and living your faith. ❤️
Be what you is and not what you ain't.
For if you is what you ain't, you ain't what you is.
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